The last six weeks....

"Trailer Park Party" Dan and I went as Joy and Earl from "My name is Earl" tv show.







This past weekend at Dans dads place.






May two four weekend at Picton beach.

MAY 2/4

May 2/4 we Canadians call Victoria day weekend due to the 24 beer we all love to drink while outside enjoying the sun. This weekend was amazing, Dan and I got to go to Sandbanks provincial park with the dogs and play and camp and it was great. I don't remember having a May 2/4 weekend this warm in a long time. It was calling for rain and clouds but that didn't happen, so we definitely lucked out. We took a long hike across the road into a field, jumped a few fences, crossed another field or two, went through the bush and ended up at this completely secluded rock beach. We had to climb down a small cliff and then hiked up the beach. There were trees that had fallen over due to the waves pushing up towards the shore and the dogs played in the roots like they were caves. It was unbelievably beautiful. Dan and I drank our beer and sat on rocks admiring the scenery, it was truly a perfect day. Our camp site was great, there were no other campers nearby so we could let the dogs roam as they pleased and they wore themselves out. The next day we spent on the beach, getting the dogs to swim in the frigid water. I only made it out to my knees and had to go back to shore, it was way to cold for my liking. I need to take Dan to a real beach one day, where when you do go in the water it is warm and inviting. I miss that about the gulf of Mexico, it was almost always warm. We got home Monday exhausted, we had to do laundry and clean all the dishes and the dogs and ourselves. We definitely smelt, having not showered or cleaned up at all in two days two nights. We were a dirty bunch. Overall a fantastic weekend, Dan said the best time he's had so far this year. We are back to being our happy in love selves again. He said I smile all the time now, as does he. A perfect way to enjoy a weekend.

New bloggers

I've recently gotten ahold of two long lost sisters through blogging. Michelle I've seen not long ago at Dads house two summers ago was it? I miss you terribly and am happy to hear you are moving on and up. Celeste OMG I miss you. Your blog touched and saddened me. We all lived through those days in fear and anger and resentment towards the people that were supposed to be there to protect us. I think they were themselves confused and lost to have put all us kids through those things. They probably have beaten themselves up over it for years I can imagine. After years of analyzing myself I've finally come to terms with our parents and forgiven them. I feel that if I hold this against them I cannot be real. Thats all I've been longing for all these years is to feel "normal" and part of the real world. I still stand out with the things I say, and things I do, but thats part of who I am now. I still don't think about those days, if I do I get really angry and f*@ked up and cry and lock myself up for hours. My bf knows very little but has seen the tears and heard the screams but still remains mostly unaware. I'm sorry for you, because I have felt your pain, its a pain that only those of us who felt it can talk about. I love you and know your dad and my mom love you and our family, not that "family" but ours. Nothing can erase mistakes of the past but I hope you can move on and be happy, I truely do. Hopefully we can all connect again.

Its been awhile...

Its been awhile since I blogged last, sorry! Things have been good, Dan and I went through a weird confusing growing up phase. He seemed confused for awhile about what he wanted and left town for a bit to figure himself out and then all of a sudden he was absolutely sure he wanted me! I'm happy especially now that he's happy and sure about us. I have a feeling he went from boy to man overnight or something. I think he was unsure if he wanted to be a grown up and had to spend time alone without me to miss me and it worked!

Our puppies are getting big and still adorable. We bought them life jackets so we can take them out swimming with us. Its to cold for me to get in the water this early in the year but Dan put on hip wadders and went out with the dogs and Oli swam way better with the jacket on. Dogs can swim well but our little pups get tired quick so this helps them float better. It was great. Jaz knows all of Oli's tricks now, she stands on her back legs and puts her paws way up in the air for treats and spins around. I wish I knew how to upload my iphone videos so you all could see. Anyways, talk to you later.